darkdragonofthenever: (kurama-fuck yourself)
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I've told my father that. Mostly because he's been in and out of my life for as long as I can remember, emotionally/physically abused myself and my brothers, sold our stuff for drug money, and generally made life a living hell for my mom. In fact, if I can help it, I do not go over to visit my mom who for some odd reason still lets him live there if he's there. I avoid that man as much as I can and he is the reason I don't live with my parents anymore.

I've been able to work out a lot of my issues living on my own, and have people tell me that I've mellowed out a lot since moving out. Not all of them, although I think some won't fix themselves anytime soon, but it's at least something good.

Next post will be less depressing. Promise. ^^


couldn't help but do this one psycho
darkdragonofthenever: (evil dish)
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GAH! Pairings! The horrible question of DOOM! It really, really depends on the series I'm into at the moment, as I like to change series nowadays like some people go through socks. However, I usually just go to whatever two characters I like best and seem to be thrown together.

As Kingdom Hearts: Re Chain of Memories is what I've been watching (since Chris is playing it and the rest of us are watching him...), wouldn't mind if there was one little push towards Sora and Riku nor if suddenly Roxas appeared out of nowhere and did his love-hate thing with Axel. or somehow both happen at once. that'd be cool and strange and PLOT HOLE AHAHAHAAHA ...don't mind the crazy. :D

Dear goodness I hope no one reads this answer! XD

As for the art update...Christmas presents are sorta coming along. I have one sketch ready for clean up/maybe inking and trying to pull another one out of the air, but not having much luck at it. I think I'll just go for shading this year, since I colored my deviantart ID tonight and proved that if I want to get back where I was/improve, I have a long ways to go. Mostly because I haven't colored anything decent in like, a year, so that's understandable.

Also still working on getting a decent picture of Vladamir done. Ha. Like that'll ever happen. And trying to get any of my boys to stop looking at girls. Hopefully. Maybe. Most likely not. I've been trying to draw them 'the right way' as in how all those 'how to draw manga' books keep trying to tell me. With the circles and the lines and all that, but that truly just confuses me. I'm used to the way I sketch my dragons and gryphons and the like, where I start off with the eye and design the entirety of the picture on that alone. No blocks or anything like that. Maybe that's why it doesn't seem like I'm improving? Because I'm stubborn? I hope not.

Mostly because, in defense of one of my dreams that most likely won't come into being, I really want to try [livejournal.com profile] nanomango in June and feel like I really have to step up my game if I'm going to really sit down and do it. Because if I want to take anything I want to do or become seriously, I need to start now or that's the feeling I'm getting. It feels like I've been sitting around too long, contemplating what I want to do, what I want to aim for, and yet too afraid to move from my comfort zone. I really need to stop doing that if I'm going to grow as an artist/writer/couch potato and just go for it. If that means I take steps to try to see if I can do 30 pages of a story in 30 days, that's what it takes, and that means I have to improve either way about it. With my storytelling, the way my characters express themselves, and how everything just adds together.

Which means I to create a storyline. Hm. Maybe I'll use one of my failed attempts. Yah. That'll work.

Speaking of failing, I'm still chugging along on my nano, although at a much slower pace than November, which is expected. I joined NaNoFiMo to try to get another 30k added on, but most likely won't see 30k, but I want at least 15k more than I had in November, since I should be at least halfway through the story by that point. Should being operative word. I never know where these stories are gonna go!

So, that's my emo update. I think it's time for me to watch some mindless anime!


comfy on the floor psycho


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